IMPRESSION BOOK | Tatiana, 25 yrs. - Herceg Novi | September, 2016.

 

~ First session

 

First, my eyes started to "blink" quickly. Then I felt throbbing in them. I could feel the air movement above my face, like a cool breeze. Above my eyes I felt that something is moving too. Then I saw landscapes, some famous places from Herceg Novi. The sea, the boats, the rocks, and finally the change of color. Mostly red in lighter and darker shades. Then the shadows. It is as if light is compressed and some kind of darkness is coming. I wasn't comfortable at that moment. The pictures alternated at once, without any specific transition, and they were kinda striking. I had the impression that I was starting to fall into a dream at the time, and that is actually a "transition" when the pictures begin to appear. When I "wake up" I have no jerk, but spontaneously and gently I move back to wakefulness. At times I find myself thinking that I do not know for sure whether I am awake or dreaming. From my physical reactions, my head jerked for a few moments, almost imperceptibly, several times. My eyebrow just started to lift. For my feet, I had the impression that they were not straight, but that they were going outwards. The places on the body where I normally and periodically have pain began to respond with a little more intense pain and then numbness. Short bursts of chils, ie. as if the chils started and then stopped immediately. Pressure at the point behind the head. In an instant, I felt an emotional rush of sadness, very briefly. Relaxation.

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After the first session, I felt as if someone had "energized" me.

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~ Second session

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First I felt the cold breeze. Then the chils down the body. And it is not a classic form of chill. It's like a chill runs through my body without getting cold. Ie. my chest and arms were warm and my feet were cold. Then I felt the weight in the body, on the legs and arms. It's like they're "fixed" to a massage bed and I can't move them. It's like someone's holding me for them and not moving me. I was tickled on many body parts, but I couldn't scratch. Then I felt a few short jerks to the head, hips and later to the legs. It is as if someone is "tickles" me, so I'm jerking that body part. Changes in breathing rhythm. I saw the sky in colors at sunset and sunrise. Blue, orange, red, purple. A purple circle that expands and shrinks. Then I see a waterfall flowing down the mountain. At one point I found myself looking at the city and its events from a very high altitude, as if I were on a skyscraper. Then, as if looking at myself from a height, I see myself as very small in space and time. So, during all the pictures I had a view from above and never on the horizon.

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During the second session I had a lot more physical than visual reactions. In fact, I also had a lot of visual reactions, but my body jerks and physical reactions distracted them. Over the next day, I was constantly having cold chils, even though I was well dressed. I dreamed of something, but I don't remember anything specific. After two sessions, I feel as calm as I can see. Not sad, not happy, but calm. And I feel stability. I feel it in my behavior, and I see that events from daily happenings do not put me out of my daily rhythm.

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~ Third session

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It is as if I see an old man with gray hair, like a wise man, who seems to be inside me and says to me, "You have a lot of everything here," referring to my insides. Like, "you've filled yourself with everything," in that sense, as a real conclusion. Again I see the sky and the colors. I saw the orange car. Then I see some life events, laughter with colleagues at work, going out, hanging out, a purple women's sweater, I see "wreaths" on the heads of children. All these pictures lasted a little longer and with slight transitions. Even though they were somehow "tossed", they seemed to have meaning and flow. So, for the first time, to see something clearly, it doesn't fly away at once until I realize first what I see. Then I felt the pressure on my solar plexus and pulses in the lower abdomen. My hands were not heavy and I could move them as desired. Several times I jerked harder with my whole body, as if I was scared. And even then my heart started beating fast. Then I felt shaking in my head and extremities, tumbling in the hips and tingling in the arm. My eyes constantly "flickered" from the beginning to the end of the session, much more than during the second session. Likewise, a strong chills, as if the cold began to catch me and then I get chills.

 

Yesterday, and still today, I slept for 15-30 minutes, with periodical jerking at least 2-3 times, knowing that I was jerking. I feel happier than yesterday. I had a couple situations where I responded to them very differently. I also experienced some situations differently by just accepting them and forgetting them, and before that same nonsense and stuff used to cause me to be upset. That calmness means more to me than anything. I thank Ivan for my calmness and inner peace because they are already more than enough effect of Reconnective Healing, and it has only been one day since the third session.